Are you teetering on the edge of transition?
Questioning to leave one life, love or work for another?
Not sure of what’s possible or how to begin?
I think I started checking out of Little French Retreat a year before the pandemic arrived. I suppose you could say it was the beginning of my mid-life crisis, or maybe the seven-year itch, from where I’d been travelling quite happily along a path, to then, for no reason at all feel a little edge of complacency begin to creep in, that left me questioning if it was still my passion.
Without realising I began to uncouple myself, like a relationship that was no longer meeting my every need or fulfilling me as it had before. Taking space, stepping back and checking out. There were plenty of distractions during this time with the constant onslaught of pandemic media, and the shifting landscapes of friendships lost and friendships gained. The end of a relationship, the pause on welcoming guests to the house and the beginning of road trips with my camera, and new lenses to inspire my passion.
Unfolding Conversations was also an idea formulated for a coaching website at the beginning of the pandemic, yet I couldn’t find the will at that time to get it into motion. So it was left in waiting for another time and place.
And then thanks to you and your support I hosted a Ukrainian family for four months, and again retreats were not possible at the house during this time. The experience was enriching in another sense, and the family who are now living in the nearby town Agen are fluent in French, working, at school and Nika proudly just came 4th place in the regional chess championships.
Throughout this period I drifted, my purpose shifted and I uncomfortably watched and waited to see if I would leave Little French Retreat behind in seek of a new and exciting idea. Yet I wasn’t entirely absent either. I continued teaching online yoga and I gained a deep understanding of my personal approach and teaching style. I began running retreats at beautiful houses close by. Until I realised I felt scattered. Where had I gone? My purpose and vision had changed in meaning and I couldn’t work out where to put my energy.
Then just like that, I realised it was time to come home and consolidate.
Instead of wandering to far-flung places, I’d been wandering in a 30km radius around the hill from which I live, like a dark night of the soul, in search of new meaning for the next phase of my life as I moved from winter to spring and from my forties, edging closer towards my fifties.
The experience doesn’t feel over, but certainly, I feel less separated from my life, and I have gained a new perspective and value in wandering. Whether from our relationship with ourselves, our loved ones or our work, wandering is part of reinvigorating a deeper meaning into life. And that we can come back to the same life, feeling completely different. Or find the courage to begin a whole new life. It just takes time, patience, good friends and sometimes a coach, or a yoga teacher, to help you formulate the journey and how you wish to return home. Checking out to check in, to the home within.
Wandering? Trying to work out your path?
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Thank you so much, Tamsin. I really enjoyed being in the coaching space with you. You facilitate with refined skill and insight, and it was a powerful and nurturing experience.