Have you reached a fork in the road?
Or feeling a sense of unease about how your life is no longer adding up?
Does duty outweigh your joy?
Or maybe an unexpected life circumstance has shattered what was, and the path ahead feels unclear?
Dear all,
It’s been a week of breakthroughs. A solution to rebuild my fallen wall and the expansion of my pottery studio with all the necessary materials to make and fire the work on site has appeared and the first changes come this month.
Moving through the experience has been one of mixed emotions, from disappointment, grief, and frustration to patience and joy. Like an oyster grinding grit, the pearl at the end was worth the wait. Yet the waiting became more valuable than the outcome, for it was time to re-imagine, nurture and refresh my focus to provide the skills I needed to rebuild my foundations as well as those of my home…..
When my wall fell in December 2019, all the questions appeared from the unexpected incident that had put a fork in the road to impact my livelihood and eventually stopped me from hosting retreats from my home. There was a gradual realisation that things would not get solved overnight and with a mixed sense of curiosity and an overwhelming burden I now faced, there were many questions at that time.
Rather than change everything, like sell and run off the hill, which I have considered many times, I wondered how I could go beyond all my limitations to realise the initial huge rebuild costs. Possibly if the pandemic had not further slowed me down, I may have had more energy to think bigger. Instead, it added a softness to my approach as l began to ask myself, what else could I do here in this place, if I couldn’t continue in the same way?
Exploring this question began a process to unblock my creativity and deepen my spiritual practice, experiencing new ways to physically and mentally get out of my way to shift my skills and redirect my focus to repackage my work to others.
I created a vision board, changed my approach to teaching with astrology and the seasons to support emotions more intuitively, began to journal every morning, took myself off on day trips to energise my perspective, adapted to online coaching and teaching yoga, and adopted the name Jardinier as my creative pseudonym to become the artist I’d always wanted to be and rediscover pottery.
It's not been easy, and there have been some very difficult moments, but turning points in life, or dark nights of the soul are an emergence, one we have no control over that challenge how we manage stress and take care of ourselves to be strong enough to embrace the nature of change.
From the understanding that spirituality is creative, and creativity is spiritual, we can find our place again, we can find what brings us joy, and lessen our fears or resistance towards the unknown, to then find our flow, follow our heart and create something new, something with a life of its own for magic to happen…
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